Category: Real Life

This weekend has been troubling for me.

The two visits I’ve taken to hospital, where my mother is at the moment, I left in tears. The nurse present the second time recommended that I not come back, since its disturbing me too much. Some of my friends agree with that assesment, in particular those who know me well.

My father, on hearing this however, asked me an important question: So what am I going to do to help when she gets out? Important indeed, and one that I discussed in private later with my brother. Some initial plans have been set, but my help will be somewhat peripheral though just as important.

The main thing is that I just cannot see her like that; It hurts me too much. Both her mother and father died slowly, her mother in particluar also from multiple strokes, and I don’t feel that it was right for them to suffer that way. How do I communicate such things to my father, as I believe strongly in such things as the Living Will and the DNR Order? Right now, I cannot.

As it stands, I’m too far away to do any real good at her home anyway, and my 3rd shift hours prevent me from doing much else at the moment as well. But there are things I can do to help, things that do not per se require me to be always present, or at least such things that I can do the work using phone calls and my PC, and an occasional drive down.

I’ll be taking a week or so off after the SLCC confrence in early Oct, and will spend some time with both my parents at that time. By then I’ll have a better idea of the situation.

-Alan

*Looks around another new space.*

It has to be said, that as a person whom likes to write on occasion, it may have been a serious mistake for me to get involved in a blog. ;) In any event, I’ve been wanting to write short snippets of things ever since I got deeply involved in Second Life, but started with just an in-world notecard (which is both painful and not easy to maintain on a regular basis, or away from home).

I did finally get involved with a blogging site for a while, a site called SLBlogger that was catering to SL Avatars. I joined in, and had a few posts, but it was taken down in short order due to ‘external circumstances’ (aka it was hacked and the blog vendor did not have a patch anytime soon). It would appear to be up again soon, but I’ve had to move beyond that anyway.

I’m now hosting, via my own domain and site, files that go beyond SL. Files such as the Until Uru KI patch, which was available elsewhere at some point but has disappeared since. The site (and now the blog) will likely be balanced more toward Uru from time to time, and as such I cannot justify it staying on SLBlogger.

I will, however, re-post entries to here once I get back in again.

-Alan

As someone who lives in the NYC Metro area, I found the explosions in London worrisome.  As it always does when I end up adding a new memorial to my private collection.

Of course like everyone else I checked in on folks I knew who could have been there.  So far I’ve heard from everyone, so I’ve been happy.

But my heart as always goes out to those effected over there.  Just as it did on 9/11 (perhaps a little too much, but I have my reasons – reference my back posts), or during the tsunami, or whenever a major disaster strikes.  It is just my nature.  My aspect in later life has been of the Healer, the caring, kind person who likes to help.

Perhaps this is why the Numbakulla story, and the Uru story, resonate in me so much. And why SL tugs at me so much as well.

–Alan